2016 for you has been what can only be described as just a little bit shit.
We're not talking colossally shit, you've had worse years and the good news is, you'll have many more even worse ones, but it's safe to say you'll be glad to wave goodbye to this one.
2016 has rushed past in a stream of doing things you didn't want to do because you felt you have some kind of duty to. You don't. You are the captain of your own life and you govern your own time. Remember that.
You've let being 'busy' and perceived distance get in the way of spending time with those closest to you. You're more settled than you've been in years, enjoy this time and share it with them. They're the ones that will always be there and they're only a car journey away. You just have to get in the bloody car!
You've let yourself be treated horrendously and you've let things go that your gut instinct tells you you shouldn't have. Always trust yourself, you will always have your own back. If it doesn't feel right it probably isn't and you should always have the balls to stick up for yourself. Never let yourself be spoken to like you have this year.
Despite all that, there have been some glimmers of sparkle in this shitstorm of a year.
You celebrated 20 years of being alive despite all the odds being stacked against you. You got to have celebratory afternoon tea with Baby Spice. Actual mother-trucking BABY SPICE! She called you inspiring. Remember that when you feel like this year has been the worst.
You got to be involved in an amazing campaign for a cause so close to your heart to raise money that will help so many people in your position. That campaign also gave you amazing perspective on your own situation. There will always, always be someone worse off than you. Stay grateful. Stay humble.
You met your incredible squad, your writing soul sisters and in meeting them have felt more at home up North than you ever thought you would. Keep them close. Anyone that can make you cry laugh through the crappy bits and make you see the benefits of Bridget Jones pants are absolute keepers.
You got published on the Huffington Post this year. When you feel like you're not good enough as a writer, remember that. You are good enough. You will only get better. Believe in yourself and you'll get there. One word at a time.
You celebrated 8 years with your mister. Someone who has supported you through your best, your worst and your absolute rock bottom. You've built a home and a life together. Appreciate him and appreciate what you've both achieved. You are ridiculously hard to live with and relationships take work. Never stop working for it.
2017 is time to do you. Spend time with the people you want to spend time with. Do things because you want to do them. Buy the thing- money is just money, you can always make more. Worry less. Laugh until you can't breathe. Leave work on time sometimes. Stop feeling guilty for everything.
Go to the gym because you want to go. Be happy in your own skin- a little bit of chub never killed anyone. Give less fucks about people who would never extend you the same courtesy. Read more books. Take more photos. Document your life, it's amazing even if it doesn't seem that way sometimes.
Most of all. Stop beating yourself up. You're doing fine. You're not fucking up as much as you think you are. This is your time, your life. You've just got to grab it and live the hell out of it. It's time to do you boo boo.
Here's to your year. Your 2017.